fuck. my. life.

i really don't know whats going on...like im sooo fucking depressed atm..but i have no reason to be...like..alright so i'll give a little story if you feel like listening/reading.
Boys: I have a stalker, changed his class so he could eat w/ me. He's asked me out 3 times. This other kid likes me too and he is always dissing my stalker. The guy i DID like is an asshole..his story..is so fucking long..lets just say he told me i was hott, and we talked more then usual and then it fell apart..and now im totally regreting taking band cuz of it. he just ruined it for me. lol he's like the secret life ricky haha. doesn't look like him just acts like him. he's almost kissed me twice.. ithink idk.. but we dont talk anymore it kinda died.
Friends: I only actually have ONE true friend i can trust atm..the rest just dont get it..and im done w/ two girls and they dont get the fucking hint and im sick of my school im failing classes and i cant wait for easter break *sigh* imma move into my friends house tht week..jk jk. i wish..
Parents: My mom doesn't understand it. I'm a fucking teenager i need my space..she just puts me in these depression states..it's obvious when im in one..cuz all day i hear are you okay? text me if you wanna talk come to my homeroom if you need something. wanna meet up and talk? but she is just SO FUCKING STUPID AND CAN"T SEE it makes me more madd...like i swear she doesn't talk to me my dad is ALWAYS sleeping cuz he works 3rd shift so i dont see him and i could seriously do drugs * i dont * in my room and my mom wouldn't notice and she could be standing downstairs its rediculous.
life: uk tht emo kid song? where its like " i want tacos " at the end? in the song its like "Can't listen to a hawthrone heights album without sobbing" Thats true..just some info....u can't listen to an Esacpe the Fate Album without cring either..after all the shit thts gone on w/ tht but thts a longgg different story.

i think im done venting..if you actually read this..i love you (: *sigh* imma go lay down and maybe draw..or write..or something.. buh bye